wingman.

so usually i am terrible at picking up guys. just pathetic...
well this weekend i had it going on!!
we start our night at oktoberfest downtown zinzinnati and twice my group of girls runs into some cute guys, both named tim, both from michigan. really?! how does that happen lol
well tim #1 was okay and he lived in mt. adams and got brittany's number, suzie's bff.
and tim #2 looked like justin beiber with his little side swoop and had another cute guy with him, which suzie and i run into at chipotle in florence. how fucking random!! i mean seriously?! and they were on their way back to lousiville where they live for work. wow.
and it gets better we get to the bar, i con two guys to buy shots for suzie's bday, so they do, my favorite chocolate cake! and then red headed sluts.
then love happened in the parking lot behind fatty patty's
but the girls continued to shot it up, including flirting with a hottie named carl, single, 30 and bought shots too!!
i was all over it!
6 guys total, all using the line, "hey! she's single!" and "its her birthday, this girl needs a shot!"
lets just say for once, i was on it :)

love's great timing.

i guess it doesn't matter how much someone hurts you, when you love them, that changes everything. i can't describe in words how i feel about someone, someone who showed me the mistakes i made, showed me how to be stronger and showed me what pain is like.
but timing on this love is ridiculous. someone who needs to work on themselves is so painful. i'm ready to make mistakes in love again, but waiting for someone to help themselves and change is so hard.
so starting over, waiting, just pretending that cuddle and kiss and i love you was the beginning of a great change. closure, or opensure as he said. or the end of one chapter, and the beginning of a new one. i just have to be strong, but being strong is a little hard. so one day at a time i'm going to accept starting over and taking it slow and who knows, maybe it will never work again, or maybe it will be the beginning of something great.
just one day at a time.